Two Way Street For Everything

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Absolutely love this song. Her voice is truly amazing and I have been listening to this song every chance that I can. Her music really speaks to me in some weird “looking for love” way

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Don’t Rock the Emotional Boat

My emotions in so bent out of shape its not even funny. I can go from being alright then something happens and I am just feeling down and sluggish all day until something makes me feel better. Maybe I do have depression but those pills are what scare me so much. I really want to let myself go and just not care anymore, but that is so hard to do. So much is happening, I just want time to slow down or reverse so I could redo some things.

I knew it was going to happen when my relationship with a guy I’ve known since the age of 17 ended because the there was nothing there anymore I guess. I wasn’t being the lover I was suppose to be and he tried his hardest to get us back on track, but I guess I wasn’t budging. Part of me feels dead, but the other part knows that I have to keep going or else I’m just going to feel miserable. Oh the joys of life and everything that is associated with it. There is still that part of me that wants to disappear but what would that do, nothing.

I just really want to give up right about now….

"I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does."

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Too Much Cruel and Not Enough Kind

I thought I could live by the saying “You have to be cruel, to be kind” (Thank You Awkward), but I don’t know if I should be using that anymore. Apparently my cruel is a bit too much and the kind part is being drowned in the vastness that is mean. All I know is that I need to straighten out in order to enjoy Spring Break down in Georgia, but hopefully I can pull that off. At least I get to spend the evening with a friend of mine who I guess is great to hang around, but there are some hidden dark secrets to them. Part of me wants to let go and see what waits for me on the other side. The good angel on my shoulder is telling me No while the devil is all gung-ho about it. Maybe it’s time to experiment with the dark side and see what really comes out to play.